TO : My Future GG

Sa SFC ( aka Singles for Christ ), we call our boyfriend/girlfriend not BF or GF .. we call 'em GG ( read ~ God's Gift ).

To my future happiness here's my simple message ~ PBPGINFWMY. "Please Be Patient. God Is Not Finished With Me Yet"


A LETTER TO THE ONE THAT GOD HAS PREPARED FOR ME

I am wondering at this very minute if you are thinking of me..

If like me, you are wondering what is taking us so long to find each other. Many times I thought I finally found you only to be disillusioned by the fact that my wait has not yet ended. I get up each day, each morning, hoping, dreaming and longing to meet you. I am thinking of how we will meet, would it be as romantic as the ones I have seen in movies? Or is it possible that I have known you all my life but but we have yet to realize that we are meant for each other? Oh how I wish you were here right now because you are the only one who has the answer to all my questions.

Sometimes, I ask myself if I have really known LOVE. I do not have the answers to that question either but I believe that more often than not, we will never really known what love is until we find the right person.. and since I haven’t found you yet, then maybe I do not really know what love is!

You just don’t know how often I dream of finally knowing what it feels like to be in your arms. Even at this very moment, I am imagining how you will simply sweep me off my feet! Perhaps, ill be drawn to you by your smile, your eyes, or maybe even how you manage to make me laugh by your silly little ways! I don’t really know for sure but I am praying that GOD will help me recognize you when the right time comes. I think of all the pain that I have gone through in the past and of how much I have cried since the day that I began my search. I just wanted you to know that I find my strength in clinging unto my vision of the beautiful life ahead of me, and that life is the life that I shall be spending with you. In my mind and in my heart, I know that you are worth all the pains and sacrifices. After all, the tears have been a part of my life, slowly washing away my flaws so I’d be perfect not in the truest sense, but just perfect for YOU !

I wonder if you’ve gone through so much pain as well and if you’ve been hurt so many times along the journey. But my dearest one, please don’t ever give up, because I am right here, patiently waiting for you. I assure you that we finally find each other, I’d slowly heal those wounds by my love. At night I’d look at my windows and stare at the beautiful sky, hoping that somehow you are also looking up and wondering about me.. I’d utter a silent prayer and send all my cries to the heavens, thinking that in time, they’d reach you. And when I feel impatient, I just close my eyes and believe that you are on my way and that you are looking to see me as well.. When I finally fall asleep, you are always in my dreams. It seems that, for now, that is the only place where I can hold on to you, long enough to tell you how much I love you. In my dreams, you would kiss away my fears and wrap me with your arms of love.

And this all the more makes me want to wake up and face the new day ahead with the hope that soon enough, you will no longer be a dream but a reality. Once again, I am assured that you are worth the wait. By then, I would simply look back and smile at all that I have gone through, in spite of the pain and amidst the simple joys in life and I would be very thankful, because they all lead me to you! In the meantime, take care of yourself for me. Hold on to our dreams and don’t even think of letting go. Believe in your heart that we will find each other no matter what happens.

GOD has planned the course. Don’t worry, don’t be afraid of getting lost.

GOD WILL SEE TO IT...

THAT ALL ROADS..

NO MATTER WHICH ONE YOU CHOOSE TO FOLLOW..

WILL LEAD TO ~ ME.

Earth To Pammy!

" To Love someone, when that love has no chance at thriving .. that's Romance."

I wasn't even conscious of what more than friendly feelings I have for him. When all of this has been bubbling barely beneath the surface. But I was too wrapped up in a blissful 2-months of sudden Friendship, that I didn't noticed the edges and boundaries blurring into a massive wad of indecision I will never fully grasp.

If it was imperative for Him to blame somebody ~ I want him to blame himself. Because based on the twisted logic of this short-lived romance, choosing to overlook everything else meant you were willing to put up a fight. At least to save the Friendship ... or whatever was left out of it.

Because ultimately, it meant you are willing to keep me.

And to stay. Instead of maintaining your silence.

Can I Keep You? ~_~

I'm clinging to the last few remnants of hope.. that it is still possible to keep him.. or at the very least ~ our Friendship.

A better portion of 15 minutes between 4:00AM - 4:15AM. Monday.

He kissed me on my right cheek. Zeroing in on a spot barely an inch away from my lips. Slowly and deliberately, enough for me to realize that maybe I don't have to make a decision for myself and that I should wait for him to tell me that I am the obvious choice. And that I am the 0ne he should be with and not her.

The kiss lingers, long after I arrived home. And if it wasn't enough - I called him up again just to make sure I was the one He should be thinking about before He goes back to bed.

My first thought, as I feel my lips curled into smile, was that I was probably mistaken about all these negative possibilities.

I have been wrong about these kinds of things too many times before. And I have discovered that all the precious little "clues" I would patiently gathered in my head will eventually pool into a dismal puddle of disappointment at the end of the day.

I do not want to assume anything because I do not want to be wrong again ~ not this time. Not when it matters to me.

But there I was, the warmth on my face embracing the sweetness in the air, evidence that this could turned out to be something really special .. and real .. and wonderful.

And this time, because it matters .. I might just be right.

That early Monday morning. At the start of a new week. I fell asleep with a smile on my face.

Been There. Done That.

PAMMY: " somtyms, we forget to thank people who make our lives happy in their own simple ways.. sometyms, we fail to tell them how much we appreciate them for being a part of our life.. today is just an ordinary day, nothing is really special but hey..thank's for being around. I appreciate you a lot." gud morning sleepyhead. =) 6:19am

ATTY: 11:54pm , same here! =)

ATTY: 12:09pm, how are you my pammy??? ;)

PAMMY: I'm quite good. Thank you for asking. Busy ka sir???

ATTY: Kinda for the past few days ma'am. Ngaun di maxado. =)

PAMMY: OK. nakakamiss ka din pala sir. I hope ur doing well.

ATTY: Really??? Hehehehe =) Quite missing you also. Thank you. I appreciate it. Busy man ako, naiisip pa din kta. Sir ka jan! haha, maxado formal.. ayw ko nyan. ;)

PAMMY: Well,, we now established the fact that we both miss each other. Classic! ;)

ATTY: If you're here, I'll hug you for missin' you a lot. Just call me by my first name. TY. =)

PAMMY: Well, nothing stays missing for too long. ( *hugging you back atty* )

ATTY: I'm longing for that baby. =)

PAMMY: Yeah, you've mentioned that. Xo wat's keeeping you busy thse days besides skul???

ATTY: Girls??? ... Nahhhh, dnt have tym for that. Practically skul lng. It demands my tym a lot.

PAMMY: OK, well, t'was nice to hear from you. Hope you'll have a great day ahead. You reap what you sow atty, so might as well invest early on. You can do it! =)

ATTY: Nothing stays missin' for too long..what do you mean by that?

PAMMY: Well, it's either you miss the person or not. Tama ba?

ATTY : Ah ok. Nag lunch kna??? May paxok ka today??

PAMMY: Di pa po ako nag lunch. May paxok ako later.

ATTY: Thank you for always being there even thou we just met and became friends for a short period of time. Hope you are still there years from now.

PAMMY: what's with this? ~ "Thank you for always being there even thou we just met and became friends for a short period of time. Hope you are still there years from now."

ATTY: For our so called friendship. Don't you like that?

PAMMY: So-called. I love those words. Opo nman. Continue to be my friend as you will always find me yours. The best relationships ..the one that lasts... are frequently the ones that are rooted in friendship. =)

ATTY: Yeah, I agree. Plz don't call me sir otherwise I will call you baby =) just call me by my first name ok?

PAMMY: aye aye si*... er ALDO.. roger that! =P

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Kumusta na? Nandyan ka pa ba?

Kumusta na? Nandyan ka pa ba???

Wala na yatang ibang magagawa kundi tumawa.

Nandyan pa ba, mga ala-ala.

Ang tanging bagay na naiwan sa 'ting dalawa.

Wag nang paikutin ang isa't isa.

Lahat ng bagay ay malinaw na.

Di na rin kailangan pagpilitan pa.

Di mo na kinakailangan pang magsalita.

Nakita ko ng lahat ng ito.

Pinahihiwatig ng mata mo.

Salamat na lamang sayo.

Ohhh ow ohhh.

I _ _ _ _ y0u!

I like you and I really mean it. My fascination with you just keeps on growing. But fate won't let me have the chance to let you know how I feel and I've kinda feeling tired already. It is because of you why I am now right here, why I achieve this goal. It's now because of you and I'd still be reaching for more. God knows I'm waiting for that chance. To catch your attention somehow. To let you know and to make you realize I'm here and that I feel something special for you. Still, I've been wishing and praying for that moment. And if ever that time will come that our roads will finally meet, I'll waste NO time and exert all my efforts in showing you how much I really feel and how this feeling is affecting me. But right now, while I'm still waiting. I'll just be contented of those times we can take, and those cute smile you make. For it's hard to accept the fact, that in this life of mine, there is too much love but so little chance.

The Little Prince

" 0n ne voit bien qu'avec le couer. L'essentiel est invisible pour les yeux"


It is only with the heart that one can see rightly.. What is essential is invisible to the eye.

~Antoine de Saint Exupery