Si Mr. Never Say Die!

Ate dinner at Mr.Kabab in West Av last week with Mr. Never Say Die... Been leaning forward in the passenger seat of his Blue RAV4 for too long and so I rested my hands on the dashboard while inspecting my newly polished fingernails, when He asked "what are you doing Miss?"

The answer I wanna gave him that time was, "trying to get you notice my fresh manicure and ask for a closer look and therefore hold my hand you dimwit!"

But my real answer was of course... "nothing...why? what's weird about what im doing?"

"Can you please put your seatbelt back on?" , he said sounding concerned.

"Fine!", I sniff. Sungit mo naman, hmpf!". I leaned back and snap on my seatbelt. Took out my phone and pretended to be texting someone. For all He knows, I might already be texting another guy and saying "Im so glad you dont make me wear a stupid seatbelt. And for that, you totally win me over this idiot"

Hold-up! Let me make it clear that this isn't like him at all. This guy beside me is not ____... or at least the ____ that I know.

Ok.. seriously, what is going on here? I wanted to scream and ask him " Who are you? and what have you done to my friend?"

"So", he said. "What have you been up to? Did you miss me?"

"Not really", I replied. And it was true. It wasn't like I had been pining for him the whole time we were not communicating.

Given the right circumstance, what we had could be permanent. But I pushed all of that to the furthest-most unreacheable corner of my mind by thinking ~he was never my boyfriend anyway.

He grinned at me and probably thought I was kidding. "Well", he said. " I missed you.Terrribly"

I tried to ignore the funny feeling at the pit of my stomach. I also tried to avert his gaze but he was so near so I just said "Really? well you certainly did an excellent job hiding it"

To that, he actually laughed.

"Come on!", he said staring right at me, his eyes intent - close to pleading. "You stopped texting me too".

He had a point, "Okay", I said.

"0kay what?"

"0kay forget what I said". An awkward pause hung over us until I realized I had to change the subject.

But He insisted, "So, who are you dating right now?"

"Nobody", I said.

"You sure?", He said.

"Yeah, I mean No, I mean yes and no. I don't know!"

"Hayy miss ayan ka nnman sa ganyan.. so there's someone? or something?"

"I think so"

"But it's not official?"

"No! It was nothing like that ok?"

"Why not?"

"Excuse me?"

"Why is it not official?" , he said quickly.

"Because!", I said lamely.

"Because???", he insisted.

"It's just not, alright? It's really complicated than you could ever imagine. Let's just talk about something else please?"

And we did. After a rather awkward start, we pulled off an easy conversation. The ride home was quick and quiet. He took my hand without the slightest tinge of hesitation, like it was the most natural thing in the whole world. Like it was something he had always meaning to do. Like he knew that we were better off as friends because ( like any other time and chances we had in the past ) there is .. already is SOMEONE. I can feel that he knew. I guess he always had.

Queer Eye for a Straight Guy?

I have a friend who's been acting kinda upset and preoccupied lately. And when I persuaded her to tell me what's going on her mind. It turns out that she found out this past week that her boyfriend _ _ _  is gay. Yes G-A-Y.

She was so surprised when He told her and she's worried that she wasn't as supportive as she should've been. It must have been a very diffucult situation for them both. I mean, think of Rustom ( aka Bibi Gandang Hari ) and Carmina.


But I was really proud of her. I think she's incredibly caring and empathetic. Instead of being bitter and mad about the situation she just let her boyfriend know that of course she still love and support him. And that they can still be friends and their relationship wont change despite of the newest revelation.


As far as I can tell, my friend did and said the right things. I wouldn't know how I would react if I happen to be on her place. I think I'm pretty open minded and tolerant when it comes to those things but you'll never know how deep your convictions are until they've put you on the same situation.

Confusionville

I'm not a princess, and this ain't a fairy tale...

My friendship is still best for him as of the moment. At least that's how I feel. But how about later? Our situation left me guessing what is really up with him. Is he treating me extra special or am I just being too little paranoid about it?

Lois Lane keeps telling me it's obvious that he's really into me. There could be a possibility that this Clark Kent buddy of mine is again harboring his old feelings for me.

But I don't wanna jeopardize a good friendship for an uncertain Prince Charming. And I certainly don't wanna assume too much, i.e. that he is head over heels with me. The last thing I want to do is to put myself in the "Hall of Shame" for being too Lana Lang about it.

If my life were a movie or fairytale I would've breathe a sigh of satisfaction, certain that He really is my Prince Charming and that we'll live HAPPILY EVER AFTER.

But my life isn't a movie nor a fairytale. There are no guarantee that there will be a happily ever after in real life.

The best that I can do is to take a deep breath, hope and pray that everything will workout just the way it's suppose to.