Single .. but Loving it! ツ

A Post VALENTINE ENTRY

When one has to live 20+something years here on Earth with the title "SINGLE" hanging on her neck ~ 0ne accumulates a lot of crap. Not that I consider my life as crap. My lovelife however does.


If it weren't for my bunch of persistent friends who would literally push me to date from time to time, I would have retained my Single Blessedness status. I'm not even sure if I would thank them or not, but oh well .. here's my confession ~>

It's funny anticipating Valentines Day. And now that it's over? I can totally say good riddance! Not that I ever celebrate it. No! I'd be dead in humiliation if I get caught celebrating it with someone. And the month of February? ( to some ~ the Single Awareness Month, maybe because this is the only time of year when you get to ponder on things and realize that you're all alone and single ) would usually get people a little stressed out and some even, will suffer from anxiety attack just because they don't have a Valentines date unlike most of their friends who are on the dating scene. For me, I'm pretty okay to stay at home with my family and let it pass even if I have a special someone, or sometimes I go out with my other "single" friends.


Back to what I was saying about V'Day .. well, it's strange that there's a point of year when you reflect on why you're suppose to have a special someone or why you're suppose to go somewhere and figure who you're going to spend it with. I mean, di bah nman, all summer long we don't really think that way. Even Christmas or New Year, we'd be contentedly sharing it with family and friends and were perfectly fine with it. But during this month, it becomes a tremendous pressure for some folks to have a special someone.


And yet sometimes, after listening to my friends who are "in-a-relationship" and hear their mirthful stories, tears of heartache and even their furrious bellows.. I would still realize that my life were pretty much complete at the moment without a partner.


I admit, there are inevitable moments when I would feel that undeniable longing for a boyfriend. I sometimes pinned my hopes and dreams of having affirmation as a person by being someone's girlfriend. I once put myself in gloom just because I have not yet found "the one". It was like I would almost establish all my conditions for happiness and fulfillment in one elusive, most likely non-existent person. Not only that I fail to see and appreciate the simple joys presented to me everyday, which in the end ~ is what I have to live through whether I have a partner or not.


And so, I went on my search. Many times I thought I finally found that person. And many times I ended up choosing the wrong one.


But my newest realization is this ~ My whole life, I have hoped that I would find someone, and not just a lover who would give me that sense of being loved unconditionally. Weirdly enough ~ I would rather pray for discernment, that having a partner is only one possible part of life to make myself complete and happy. I dont' have to let it become a rule. Finding the "right person" is hard and wrong. Again.. it is best to be the right person for the ONE you chose to love and start from there.


An excerpt from the book I read by Joshua Harris "Self Steem is the beginning of True Love! The lover who is not sure of herself and who does not accept herself as worth loving is incapable of loving trully and maturely. The true and mature love is confident of the value of her love. She knows herself and respects herself to be proud of her self gift."

I realized that no matter how often I tried to work things out on my own, I would still end up disappointed because I set out standards and define the "right person" for myself. It's great when you depend to others for happiness, but then it works the other way too. Sometimes, you have to realize that you can also give yourself that feeling ( of contentment and happiness ) and be able to appreciate it.

Meanwhile, as much as I still like dating. I chose to be Single. I finally became really thankful that God ended my last relationship because I've suffered from too much pain already.

But LOVE? When it comes down to it.. some people say "It's a many splendored thing" .. that True love can wait, is blind and can never be defined. But I say ~ no matter what the defintion is .. A big LET GOD DO THE WORK advice for those who are on their search for it, or even for those who have already found it. Don't rush things, because somewhere and somehow God is preparing somebody for You!

You may call it the "Waiting Time". But while waiting .. ~ PRAY. Let God guide you always. Trust me. HE knows BEST!

It'll come when you least expect it. And who knows? It might come knocking right at your door even before you've asked for it. ☺

I hope that everyone learn something from this foolish entry of mine.

I also hope it brings you my message of FAITH .. and of LOVE. ♥♥♥

Once again ~ HAPPY HEART'S MONTH EVERYONE! ~ Keep Lovin'!