Au revoir means ..

 I'll be seeing you again my friend.. Thank you for your loyalty! Thanks for just being there.

'Tis the Season!

Feliz Navidad! Joyeux Noel! Merry Christmas! Maligayang Pasko!

Tree lights that sparkle and dance in your eyes.
Giggles of gladness and squeals of surprise.
Treats to be tasted and gifts to be found.
Music and laughter and hugs all around.


Bright home made memories
and sweet dreams come true.
Moments to live in my heart,
All year through!

Kasi naman Kasi ..

Pagod na pagod na ako .. maghapon ka na kasing tumatakbo sa isipan ko. Kasi naman kasi ... ^_^

Happy 365th!

It’s been a year when I got a text message. And it says : “When you know that it will make you happy - grab it! Because you’ll never know if there would be any second chances. Ald*** here. H’wag ka na maguluhan.”

For a year, there was …

… Don’t take it back. ‘coz I’m not willing to part ways with it.

… Maybe you do? Seeing me is immaterial to the issue. Feeling it, IS. Heart Beats.

… There are reasons, that reason doesn’t know.

… We are all part of each other’s lives. If someone was about to slip, someone else could catch him. ~ Mitch Albom

… As always, I’m your At*y. Trust and confidence ba.

… Jet’aime.

… Amusing lang pala ha. :(

… Are we both special to you? You are not answering my question. But it’s okay, mas matagal mo na sya kilala.

… At*y told me that he misses you too.. and he _ _ _ _ you too.

… Natutuwa is somewhat synonymous to kinikilig.

… Di na ba magbabago isip mo in going out with him? Even if I ask you out tonight?

But then, there was also ..

… Persistence tramples resistance.

… To love someone, when that love has no chance at thriving, that’s Romance.

… I never had indigestion in words that I eat.

And then.. now.. it's SILENCE.

But it’s okay, I still sing Paramore whenever I miss you “for you are, the only exception” .. and those of Gwen Stefani’s .. “you really love me underneath it all”.

And I still thank God for giving me such a saving friendship. For me, it’s still a gift, a blessing ~ PRO BONO.

Because I believe, you came when I was at my lowest. Saved by the bell. Thank you. And despite the silence ~ Happy 365th!

Here's To The New Chapter!

It seems like only yesterday when I accompanied you to your college graduation. And now, with God’s grace, giving birth to your first born. As your big sister I could not let such a momentous occasion pass without telling you that it has been a joy to see you delight yourself with the Lord and to see Him give you the desires of your heart.

Remember that being a wife and mother really IS a noble and sacred calling like no other.

Under mountains of dishes and laundry, sleepless nights, thousands of diaper changes and days when you wonder what you have accomplished besides getting baby Lance fed, it can be easy to feel like you aren’t doing much in life. But just remember that these more mundane tasks are all part of a greater work for God. As a mother you are raising mighty warriors for the Lord. I can tell you that while it is a lot of plain, honest hard work, no career could be more fulfilling than raising the children God has given you alongside the man God has given you.

As for you (Julius), my dear brother-in-law, it is with great joy that we welcome you to the family. Not only did you seem so perfectly suited for my sister, but you seemed perfectly suited to our whole family as well.

Congratulations in advance Mina and Julius for your new BLESSINGS. Hope to see and carry baby Lance soon!

Thus, out of small beginnings greater things have grown by God’s hand who made all things out of nothing, and gives being to all things that are.

Remember .. You are still my sister and will ALWAYS be my sister and I will ALWAYS love you.

E119

Miss 'em much? Hehe..

Still Here

No matter what’s in between n0w and before, I’m just glad we’re still here.. A little different but still here. ^_^

To Be Near You

Are you just a habit? Or some kind of addiction. Can't seem to get you out of my system. Am I truly hopeless. Am I being pathetic. Are you even aware of my existence.

Missing FELICITY.

Bye Bye Bye!

All I want for Christmas ..  is a good ‘ol vacation ~ sea.sand.sun.

But I don’t think I’ll get it. For a handful of reasons, I couldn’t … Although a good friend of mine already made an offer I couldn’t resist, paying the airfare and all that, I just can’t.

Say sayonara to my Bora plans. At least for now. I guess I’ll be seeing you in Summer! ~_~

Muggle Thoughts

Grew up reading-watching and quoting them. But it’s just too sad to watch the last installment of The Harry Potter Series this month. Though I can’t think of anyone more ideally suited for their character than this three person in the picture. Good job Daniel, Emma and Rupert!

“Happiness can be found, even in the darkest of times, if one only remembers to turn on the light.” ~ Albus Dumbledore / Harry Potter and The Prizoner of Azkaban

A Promise

Love isn’t love until you give it away. But love will only have life when it is shared by two people who believe in its meaning, by people who share one goal, one commitment, and by people who are selflessly loyal to each other.

Just my two cents.

And that is what these two folks are going to promise on the 5th. Goodluck you guys. Godbless and Best Wishes! ^_^

Status

"Maybe I hang around here, a little more than I should. But we both know I’ve got somewhere else to go."   ~ Olivia Newton John

Good Reads

 

Just finished saving pdf copy of my favorite books. Well, at least some of them. 

MY LIST : 

Mitch Albom's * The Five People You Meet in Heaven, For One More Day and Tuesdays With Morrie 

Paolo Coelho's * The Alchemist and By the River Piedra I Sat Down and Wept 

Dan Brown's * Da Vinci Code 

Antoine De Saint Exupery's * The Little Prince

Cecilia Ahern's * PS I Love You 

Frances Burnette's * The Secret Garden 

Nicholas Sparks's * The Last Song

Now .. all I need is to find time to read 'em. Hehe.

Bangon

This is one inspiring ad. Makes us all think.. Ikaw? para kanino ka bumabangon?

Always Back to You ..

Set me free, leave me be. I don't wanna fall another moment into your gravity. Here I am and I stand so tall, just the way I'm suppose to be. But you're on to me and all over me ..

Something always brings me back to you. It never takes too long ..

But you're neither friend nor foe though I can't seem to let you go. The one thing I still know is that you're keeping me down.. yeah you're keeping me down ..

Just Breathe

Inspired by Stef's Top Ten lists of whattnot .. here's my own version of top ten .. sfc songs of praise and worship. I was cleaning my room the other day and found this old copy of GLORY ( Special Edition ) that my mentor gave me during my CLP graduation. I was trying to familiarize myself with most of the lyrics and tunes and what an amazing feeling having to sing them all again.

Read on and sing with me, shall we?

10. I offer my Life ~ All that I am, all that I have, I lay them down before you oh Lord. All my regrets, all my acclaim. The joy and the pain, I'm making them yours.

9. My Life is in You ~ My life is in You Lord, my strength is in You Lord, my hope is in You Lord. In You, is in You.

8. Sure Foundation ~ Lord we are Your children chosen and called by Your name. With one heart and purpose we gather. To glorify You and proclaim. That You Lord are a sure foundation, we will not be afraid.

7. God is the Strength of my Heart ~  Whom have I in heaven but You? There is nothing on Earth I desire besides you. My heart and my strength, many times they fail. But there is one truth, that always will prevail.

6. Shine Jesus Shine ~ Shine Jesus shine. Fill this land with the Father's glory. Blaze, Spirit blaze,. Set our hearts on fire. Flow, river flow. Flood the nations with grace and mercy. Send forth Your word. Lord and let there be light. 

5. You are my God ~ For You are my God, yes You are my Lord. All praise and thanksgiving. Your love and kindness shall last for all time. All my praises I will give to you.

4. Victory to our King ~ All glory unto You, this battle cry we sing. That victory belongs to Him. Victory to our King.

3. Redeeming Love ~ I come boldly, trusting only Your redeeming love. Flowing freely, from your side now, Your atoning blood. Like a river, like a fountain, like a cleansing flood. I pour out my worship to You, for Your redeeming love.

2. Prepare the Way ~ Prepare the way, prepare the way for our redeemer. Prepare the way, prepare the way for our restorer. Make ready your heart. Make ready your home. Make ready the people of God. Prepare the way.

1. We'll be Faithful ~ And we'll be faithful to our calling, For You are able to keep us from falling. For in Your promise, we will trust. You'll be faithful to finish the work You began in us.

Coffee or Stickers?

It’s starbucks-giving-away-new-planners-provided-that-you-spend-way-too-much-money-on-their-overpriced-imported-coffee time of the year again! Nyahhh!

Starbucks wasn’t as full as I expected it would be last Tuesday night. So, I was standing at the customers’ side of the counter admiring the 2011 Starbucks Planner displayed atop the dessert display fridge when the barista called my attention, “Hi… this counter is open.”

I walked towards his side and gave my order: “Venti Peppermint Mocha please, to go.” And added, “Hot” ( my all time favorite ). The barista smiled and we went through the normal routine— I ordered, he repeats my order, he asks for my name and writes it on the cup, he punches in my order, tells me how much my bill is, I hand him money, he gives me back my change. Then he asked me if I have a sticker card. And I didn’t (I still don’t). He asked if I would want one, I said  “YES! Yes Please!”  ( parang nanalo lang sa Lotto, hehe ) Of course I want one! That was what I actually came there for!

On that note, I guess it’s about time that we do the countdown folks …

Happy Holidays Everyone!

Dear John Tyree

 

Dear John,

There’s so much I want to say to you, but I’m not sure where I should begin. Should I start telling you that I love you? Or that the days I’ve spent with you have been the happiest in my life? Or that in the short time I’ve known you, I’ve come to believe that we were meant to be together? I could say all those things and all would be true, but as I reread them, all I can think is that I wish I were with you now, holding your hand and watching for your elusive smile. In the future, I know I’ll relive our time together a thousand times. I’ll hear your laughter and see you face and feel your arms around me. I’m going to miss all that, more than you can imagine. You’re a rare gentleman, John, and I treasure that about you. In all the time we were together, you never pressed me to sleep with you, and I can’t tell you how much you meant to me. It made what we had seem even more special, and that’s how I always want to remember my time with you. Like a pure white light, breathtaking to behold. I’ll think about you every day. Part of me is still scared that there will come a time when you don’t feel the same way, that you’ll somehow forget what we shared, so this is what I want to do. Wherever you are and no matter what’s going on with your life, when it’s the first night of the full moon -like it was the first time we met- I want you to find it in the nighttime sky. I want you to think about me and the week we shared, because wherever I am and no matter what’s going on with my life, that’s exactly what I’ll be doing. If we can’t be together, at least we can share that, and maybe between the two of us, we can make this last forever. I love you, John Tyree, and I’m going to hold you to the promise you once made to me. If you come back, I’ll marry you. If you break you promise, you’ll break my heart.

Love,

Savannah

Phrases @ FB says ..

I was so amused by this I decided to keep it in my memory bank. I certainly did cracked up with this joke .. (Un)fortunate coincidence?  Or is it Fate reminding me of something? Hahaha!

It's Alright

One of the things I should learn as a Christian, is that .. Trust requires us to accept that some questions will remain unanswered. When we grow weary of waiting or find ourselves disappointed and discouraged, we have to choose to trust GOD. And as we continually choose to place our trust in Him and focus on His faithfulness in our lives, we will gradually let go of trusting ourselves. Your situation may seem the same day after day, and yet everyday God is drawing closer with His blessings for you. Life isn't about finding all the right answers. It's about asking the right questions. We simply don't have all the right answers. But we worship a GOD who does.

Well Done!

Last year's theme is keeping your faith to God after everything the country has been through. This year's theme is about making use of what God gave Filipinos to shine across nations. Everything is still about our relationship to God which is the essence of Christmas, right?

Well Done ABS-CBN! ^^,)

When Trust and Friendship Fades

Another inexcusably long absence of writing entries for past couple of months, again not for lack of activity or life (for crying out loud, there's so much things to be done but so little time) .. or stories to tell or write for that matter, but more of.. lack of blogging time. I suppose one might adapt an older adage: Those who want to blog, make time to blog, but nonetheless, here I am ~ "read it @ your own risk" is back online (gawd, I hope I can keep up to my words, haha)

Recently.. I was breaking off ties with most of the people I used to connect with, share my happiness, friendship and maybe life with. And though it's tough, I've realized that it might just be a part of the journey that I needed to go through this year. I am sometimes almost convinced that everything happens for a reason. Whether it be a lesson learned or good memories made, it is just a stepping stone in your journey ahead. 

True, it is very sad and difficult to stop communication with someone who was part of your life for so long, when all of a sudden fate would take different turns and in the end you'd realize they would rather keep their silence and lose your friendship in exchange of their own immature, selfish reasons. 

But we must also need to learn that we all deserve to be happy. I have lost a very close friend, a lover, a cousin, teammates and it all happened this year.. Even my used to be ever stronger personal relationship with God. And it saddens me to think about this every now and then.  But life must go on , people will come and go no matter how much you wish to keep them. A wise friend once told me and I quote, "Demolish the bridges behind you. So that there would be no other choice, but to move forward."

Although it's also hard when someone you thought would always be there, suddenly turn their backs on you. People that you thought you could trust your whole life with, will be the same person who would pull you down to sadness and misery no matter how hard you tried not to get involved with it. Some even, would get your attention so likely, they want you to be part of it. It's so frustrating though isn't it, because when a friend does this to you and regardless of the fact that you feel you have taken a really huge step in deciding to give them another chance .. only to figure out later, that the so-called friend will do the same thing over and over again. No wonder people get caught in circles. As expected, they would rather not admit their shortcomings and pretend everything's fine. I guess to them, life is always better that way. That's the saddest and very disappointing realization I've ever discovered this year.

~0~

Destiny is ...

Grandpa: just  suppose that  the shaping and molding of destiny is infact your destiny.

Jordan: hmm, i never thought about it like that..

Grandpa: id tell you what destiny means if you really wanna know..that's the least i can do for you  letting me stare.

Jordan: what does it mean?

Grandpa: destiny... is the bridge you build... to the one you love..

Jordan: yeah but if it's meant to be, it's meant to be..

Grandpa: arghh, ive been hearing people say that to me for the last 78 yrs. and i'm tellin you it pisses me off, ok ill leave you to your letter, its not polite for me to stay, besides you'll gonna cry, its very moving, he must have writen too many drafts.

Grandpa: i wish you a story... with a happy ending, and the wisdom to look for it..^_^.

~ My Sassy Girl  ( 2008 )

Friends Are Treasures

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

FRIENDSHIP. Isn't about whom you have known the longest, who came first, or who cares the best. It's about who CAME ..  and never LEFT

Kamaaayyyy!

I'm so glad you are already married. And we will probably never see each other again. But I now find comfort in the thought that I will be much happier than you ever will be. ^_^

Si Mr. Never Say Die!

Ate dinner at Mr.Kabab in West Av last week with Mr. Never Say Die... Been leaning forward in the passenger seat of his Blue RAV4 for too long and so I rested my hands on the dashboard while inspecting my newly polished fingernails, when He asked "what are you doing Miss?"

The answer I wanna gave him that time was, "trying to get you notice my fresh manicure and ask for a closer look and therefore hold my hand you dimwit!"

But my real answer was of course... "nothing...why? what's weird about what im doing?"

"Can you please put your seatbelt back on?" , he said sounding concerned.

"Fine!", I sniff. Sungit mo naman, hmpf!". I leaned back and snap on my seatbelt. Took out my phone and pretended to be texting someone. For all He knows, I might already be texting another guy and saying "Im so glad you dont make me wear a stupid seatbelt. And for that, you totally win me over this idiot"

Hold-up! Let me make it clear that this isn't like him at all. This guy beside me is not ____... or at least the ____ that I know.

Ok.. seriously, what is going on here? I wanted to scream and ask him " Who are you? and what have you done to my friend?"

"So", he said. "What have you been up to? Did you miss me?"

"Not really", I replied. And it was true. It wasn't like I had been pining for him the whole time we were not communicating.

Given the right circumstance, what we had could be permanent. But I pushed all of that to the furthest-most unreacheable corner of my mind by thinking ~he was never my boyfriend anyway.

He grinned at me and probably thought I was kidding. "Well", he said. " I missed you.Terrribly"

I tried to ignore the funny feeling at the pit of my stomach. I also tried to avert his gaze but he was so near so I just said "Really? well you certainly did an excellent job hiding it"

To that, he actually laughed.

"Come on!", he said staring right at me, his eyes intent - close to pleading. "You stopped texting me too".

He had a point, "Okay", I said.

"0kay what?"

"0kay forget what I said". An awkward pause hung over us until I realized I had to change the subject.

But He insisted, "So, who are you dating right now?"

"Nobody", I said.

"You sure?", He said.

"Yeah, I mean No, I mean yes and no. I don't know!"

"Hayy miss ayan ka nnman sa ganyan.. so there's someone? or something?"

"I think so"

"But it's not official?"

"No! It was nothing like that ok?"

"Why not?"

"Excuse me?"

"Why is it not official?" , he said quickly.

"Because!", I said lamely.

"Because???", he insisted.

"It's just not, alright? It's really complicated than you could ever imagine. Let's just talk about something else please?"

And we did. After a rather awkward start, we pulled off an easy conversation. The ride home was quick and quiet. He took my hand without the slightest tinge of hesitation, like it was the most natural thing in the whole world. Like it was something he had always meaning to do. Like he knew that we were better off as friends because ( like any other time and chances we had in the past ) there is .. already is SOMEONE. I can feel that he knew. I guess he always had.

Queer Eye for a Straight Guy?

I have a friend who's been acting kinda upset and preoccupied lately. And when I persuaded her to tell me what's going on her mind. It turns out that she found out this past week that her boyfriend _ _ _  is gay. Yes G-A-Y.

She was so surprised when He told her and she's worried that she wasn't as supportive as she should've been. It must have been a very diffucult situation for them both. I mean, think of Rustom ( aka Bibi Gandang Hari ) and Carmina.


But I was really proud of her. I think she's incredibly caring and empathetic. Instead of being bitter and mad about the situation she just let her boyfriend know that of course she still love and support him. And that they can still be friends and their relationship wont change despite of the newest revelation.


As far as I can tell, my friend did and said the right things. I wouldn't know how I would react if I happen to be on her place. I think I'm pretty open minded and tolerant when it comes to those things but you'll never know how deep your convictions are until they've put you on the same situation.

Confusionville

I'm not a princess, and this ain't a fairy tale...

My friendship is still best for him as of the moment. At least that's how I feel. But how about later? Our situation left me guessing what is really up with him. Is he treating me extra special or am I just being too little paranoid about it?

Lois Lane keeps telling me it's obvious that he's really into me. There could be a possibility that this Clark Kent buddy of mine is again harboring his old feelings for me.

But I don't wanna jeopardize a good friendship for an uncertain Prince Charming. And I certainly don't wanna assume too much, i.e. that he is head over heels with me. The last thing I want to do is to put myself in the "Hall of Shame" for being too Lana Lang about it.

If my life were a movie or fairytale I would've breathe a sigh of satisfaction, certain that He really is my Prince Charming and that we'll live HAPPILY EVER AFTER.

But my life isn't a movie nor a fairytale. There are no guarantee that there will be a happily ever after in real life.

The best that I can do is to take a deep breath, hope and pray that everything will workout just the way it's suppose to.

Oh, For Crying Out Loud!

I guess I have observed one or two things about human nature over the years. Specially a sickening display of male chauvinism just today at lunch.

I was in Trinoma with Mike eating the second half of my tuna sandwhich when I overheard a conversation from a group of guys across our table talking about women like we're all empty headed Barbie dolls waiting breathlessly for our Ken to ask us out!

One of them ( Mr. Hey-Im-The-Man! ) were talking the loudest ~ and was bragging that he could get any girl to go with him to a motel or something, he actually snapped his fingers and said " Anyone I want, just like that!"

The nerve of that guy! He was already convinced that he is a Superior Being destined for Greatness ( Urggh! Spare me! )

If only I had enough courage to face those bunch of airheads, I would've marched into their table and give him a piece of my mind!

But well, there goes my appetite. I stuffed my lunch back into my tray and hurried to the nearest exit and got myself some fresh air! I mean, why would any "sane" girl subject herself to public humiliation for the privelege of dating that neanderthal guy?!

Know what Mike? If I were you.. ~ I wouldn't be so proud to belong to that gender! You've got to admit, that man is a pathetic Looser with a capital "L".

Oh alright, I dont wanna sound as if I wanted to bad mouth men in particular. I should stop myself before I even begin to say something I will regret someday. And next thing I'll know, may mag offer na lang sa akin sumali sa Asusasyon ng mga Kababaihan na Galit sa Kalalakihan! Waha! ^_^

Single .. but Loving it! ツ

A Post VALENTINE ENTRY

When one has to live 20+something years here on Earth with the title "SINGLE" hanging on her neck ~ 0ne accumulates a lot of crap. Not that I consider my life as crap. My lovelife however does.


If it weren't for my bunch of persistent friends who would literally push me to date from time to time, I would have retained my Single Blessedness status. I'm not even sure if I would thank them or not, but oh well .. here's my confession ~>

It's funny anticipating Valentines Day. And now that it's over? I can totally say good riddance! Not that I ever celebrate it. No! I'd be dead in humiliation if I get caught celebrating it with someone. And the month of February? ( to some ~ the Single Awareness Month, maybe because this is the only time of year when you get to ponder on things and realize that you're all alone and single ) would usually get people a little stressed out and some even, will suffer from anxiety attack just because they don't have a Valentines date unlike most of their friends who are on the dating scene. For me, I'm pretty okay to stay at home with my family and let it pass even if I have a special someone, or sometimes I go out with my other "single" friends.


Back to what I was saying about V'Day .. well, it's strange that there's a point of year when you reflect on why you're suppose to have a special someone or why you're suppose to go somewhere and figure who you're going to spend it with. I mean, di bah nman, all summer long we don't really think that way. Even Christmas or New Year, we'd be contentedly sharing it with family and friends and were perfectly fine with it. But during this month, it becomes a tremendous pressure for some folks to have a special someone.


And yet sometimes, after listening to my friends who are "in-a-relationship" and hear their mirthful stories, tears of heartache and even their furrious bellows.. I would still realize that my life were pretty much complete at the moment without a partner.


I admit, there are inevitable moments when I would feel that undeniable longing for a boyfriend. I sometimes pinned my hopes and dreams of having affirmation as a person by being someone's girlfriend. I once put myself in gloom just because I have not yet found "the one". It was like I would almost establish all my conditions for happiness and fulfillment in one elusive, most likely non-existent person. Not only that I fail to see and appreciate the simple joys presented to me everyday, which in the end ~ is what I have to live through whether I have a partner or not.


And so, I went on my search. Many times I thought I finally found that person. And many times I ended up choosing the wrong one.


But my newest realization is this ~ My whole life, I have hoped that I would find someone, and not just a lover who would give me that sense of being loved unconditionally. Weirdly enough ~ I would rather pray for discernment, that having a partner is only one possible part of life to make myself complete and happy. I dont' have to let it become a rule. Finding the "right person" is hard and wrong. Again.. it is best to be the right person for the ONE you chose to love and start from there.


An excerpt from the book I read by Joshua Harris "Self Steem is the beginning of True Love! The lover who is not sure of herself and who does not accept herself as worth loving is incapable of loving trully and maturely. The true and mature love is confident of the value of her love. She knows herself and respects herself to be proud of her self gift."

I realized that no matter how often I tried to work things out on my own, I would still end up disappointed because I set out standards and define the "right person" for myself. It's great when you depend to others for happiness, but then it works the other way too. Sometimes, you have to realize that you can also give yourself that feeling ( of contentment and happiness ) and be able to appreciate it.

Meanwhile, as much as I still like dating. I chose to be Single. I finally became really thankful that God ended my last relationship because I've suffered from too much pain already.

But LOVE? When it comes down to it.. some people say "It's a many splendored thing" .. that True love can wait, is blind and can never be defined. But I say ~ no matter what the defintion is .. A big LET GOD DO THE WORK advice for those who are on their search for it, or even for those who have already found it. Don't rush things, because somewhere and somehow God is preparing somebody for You!

You may call it the "Waiting Time". But while waiting .. ~ PRAY. Let God guide you always. Trust me. HE knows BEST!

It'll come when you least expect it. And who knows? It might come knocking right at your door even before you've asked for it. ☺

I hope that everyone learn something from this foolish entry of mine.

I also hope it brings you my message of FAITH .. and of LOVE. ♥♥♥

Once again ~ HAPPY HEART'S MONTH EVERYONE! ~ Keep Lovin'!

CREED of LIFE

~ Let your love be stronger than your hate and anger. Learn the wisdom of compromise, for it is better to bend a little than to break. ~

Your life is a reflection of your thoughts. If you change your thinking, you change your life. Accept that you are where you are, and you are what you are because of yourself. If you don’t like it, change it!

Things may go wrong, but life must go on. Tears may run dry, but smiles must be given. And every time you fall, you should always rise… coz this is how God teaches us to be strong.

Life has uncertainties. We don’t know when our time on earth is up ’till it’s over. So take many pictures, laugh much, have a long walk with someone, take time to look up at the stars, eat well, sing your praises, feel the wind, smile a lot and love… because every 60 seconds you spend is a minute of happiness you can never get back.

Even if love is full of thorns, embrace it. For between those “THORNS” there’s a “ROSE” that’s worth all the pain.

Forget about all the reasons why something may not work. What you really need to do is to find one good reason why it will.

It is always a risk to love someone. It involves time, patience, and understanding to get someone’s heart to open up. At times, it will work. Other times, it won’t. But that’s why you call it a risk - you invest in something and there’s a possibility you won’t win. However, you still get something in return: strength of heart and mind, and the assurance that you won’t have any regrets from not trying.

The Simpsons Moment

Let me start by saying, I think the greatest character in The Simpsons is Lisa. I aspire to be like her. Though everybody loves Homer and Bart's great .. and the way Smithers pines for Mr. Burns ~ he's like a little dog just trying so hard to make his master happy is the saddest love story.

I like Lisa's characeter. She's the voice of reason in a family of chaos. I aspire to that, to be a voice of reason one day. I love the counter balance of her being deep and philosophical. She seems someone who is OK on her own. Someone who can handle being by herself and that's the character I've been trying to teach myself over the years to acquire to.

The Simpsons, is to me, probably one of the greatest show in television. It inspires me everytime I watch it. So I knew that if I ever meet Matt Groening, the creator, I'd probably attack him because I have so much love and appreciation for what the show has given me over the years.

A Warrior

"We are hard pressed on every side but not crushed. Perplexed but not in despair. Persecuted but not abandoned. Struck down but not destroyed." ~ 2 Corinthians 4 : 8-9

GOD has been good to me. But I did not realize that until I entered SFC. Even the manner in which I joined it ( i  knew now ) God orchestrated.

I only joined because I was jobless during those times. So when my uncle asked me to attend their first day of CLP ( Christian Life Program ) , I said "why not?"

When I entered the room, full of strange unfamiliar faces and started my very first CLP I was hesitant. Because I never thought I would join such a group, I mean I have to admit, my relationship with God would only limit to attending mass every Sunday.

But with barely two sessions, I assumed I had found the reason. I've discovered why I joined. God gave me such hunger ~ a hunger to serve Him, worship and praise Him for the rest of my life and after knowing more about SFC, I knew I had found the way to satisfy my hunger.

I am now a 7-yr old member of Singles for Christ and I normally join Gawad Kalinga projects in Payatas whenever I have time to do so, and  I believe that every member has been trained for the past 17 years to be such a warrior. To be part of an army that will conquer territories for our Lord. I am priveledged to be part of this army. To be part of SFC.

I am here to stay.

TO : My Future GG

Sa SFC ( aka Singles for Christ ), we call our boyfriend/girlfriend not BF or GF .. we call 'em GG ( read ~ God's Gift ).

To my future happiness here's my simple message ~ PBPGINFWMY. "Please Be Patient. God Is Not Finished With Me Yet"


A LETTER TO THE ONE THAT GOD HAS PREPARED FOR ME

I am wondering at this very minute if you are thinking of me..

If like me, you are wondering what is taking us so long to find each other. Many times I thought I finally found you only to be disillusioned by the fact that my wait has not yet ended. I get up each day, each morning, hoping, dreaming and longing to meet you. I am thinking of how we will meet, would it be as romantic as the ones I have seen in movies? Or is it possible that I have known you all my life but but we have yet to realize that we are meant for each other? Oh how I wish you were here right now because you are the only one who has the answer to all my questions.

Sometimes, I ask myself if I have really known LOVE. I do not have the answers to that question either but I believe that more often than not, we will never really known what love is until we find the right person.. and since I haven’t found you yet, then maybe I do not really know what love is!

You just don’t know how often I dream of finally knowing what it feels like to be in your arms. Even at this very moment, I am imagining how you will simply sweep me off my feet! Perhaps, ill be drawn to you by your smile, your eyes, or maybe even how you manage to make me laugh by your silly little ways! I don’t really know for sure but I am praying that GOD will help me recognize you when the right time comes. I think of all the pain that I have gone through in the past and of how much I have cried since the day that I began my search. I just wanted you to know that I find my strength in clinging unto my vision of the beautiful life ahead of me, and that life is the life that I shall be spending with you. In my mind and in my heart, I know that you are worth all the pains and sacrifices. After all, the tears have been a part of my life, slowly washing away my flaws so I’d be perfect not in the truest sense, but just perfect for YOU !

I wonder if you’ve gone through so much pain as well and if you’ve been hurt so many times along the journey. But my dearest one, please don’t ever give up, because I am right here, patiently waiting for you. I assure you that we finally find each other, I’d slowly heal those wounds by my love. At night I’d look at my windows and stare at the beautiful sky, hoping that somehow you are also looking up and wondering about me.. I’d utter a silent prayer and send all my cries to the heavens, thinking that in time, they’d reach you. And when I feel impatient, I just close my eyes and believe that you are on my way and that you are looking to see me as well.. When I finally fall asleep, you are always in my dreams. It seems that, for now, that is the only place where I can hold on to you, long enough to tell you how much I love you. In my dreams, you would kiss away my fears and wrap me with your arms of love.

And this all the more makes me want to wake up and face the new day ahead with the hope that soon enough, you will no longer be a dream but a reality. Once again, I am assured that you are worth the wait. By then, I would simply look back and smile at all that I have gone through, in spite of the pain and amidst the simple joys in life and I would be very thankful, because they all lead me to you! In the meantime, take care of yourself for me. Hold on to our dreams and don’t even think of letting go. Believe in your heart that we will find each other no matter what happens.

GOD has planned the course. Don’t worry, don’t be afraid of getting lost.

GOD WILL SEE TO IT...

THAT ALL ROADS..

NO MATTER WHICH ONE YOU CHOOSE TO FOLLOW..

WILL LEAD TO ~ ME.

Earth To Pammy!

" To Love someone, when that love has no chance at thriving .. that's Romance."

I wasn't even conscious of what more than friendly feelings I have for him. When all of this has been bubbling barely beneath the surface. But I was too wrapped up in a blissful 2-months of sudden Friendship, that I didn't noticed the edges and boundaries blurring into a massive wad of indecision I will never fully grasp.

If it was imperative for Him to blame somebody ~ I want him to blame himself. Because based on the twisted logic of this short-lived romance, choosing to overlook everything else meant you were willing to put up a fight. At least to save the Friendship ... or whatever was left out of it.

Because ultimately, it meant you are willing to keep me.

And to stay. Instead of maintaining your silence.

Can I Keep You? ~_~

I'm clinging to the last few remnants of hope.. that it is still possible to keep him.. or at the very least ~ our Friendship.

A better portion of 15 minutes between 4:00AM - 4:15AM. Monday.

He kissed me on my right cheek. Zeroing in on a spot barely an inch away from my lips. Slowly and deliberately, enough for me to realize that maybe I don't have to make a decision for myself and that I should wait for him to tell me that I am the obvious choice. And that I am the 0ne he should be with and not her.

The kiss lingers, long after I arrived home. And if it wasn't enough - I called him up again just to make sure I was the one He should be thinking about before He goes back to bed.

My first thought, as I feel my lips curled into smile, was that I was probably mistaken about all these negative possibilities.

I have been wrong about these kinds of things too many times before. And I have discovered that all the precious little "clues" I would patiently gathered in my head will eventually pool into a dismal puddle of disappointment at the end of the day.

I do not want to assume anything because I do not want to be wrong again ~ not this time. Not when it matters to me.

But there I was, the warmth on my face embracing the sweetness in the air, evidence that this could turned out to be something really special .. and real .. and wonderful.

And this time, because it matters .. I might just be right.

That early Monday morning. At the start of a new week. I fell asleep with a smile on my face.

Been There. Done That.

PAMMY: " somtyms, we forget to thank people who make our lives happy in their own simple ways.. sometyms, we fail to tell them how much we appreciate them for being a part of our life.. today is just an ordinary day, nothing is really special but hey..thank's for being around. I appreciate you a lot." gud morning sleepyhead. =) 6:19am

ATTY: 11:54pm , same here! =)

ATTY: 12:09pm, how are you my pammy??? ;)

PAMMY: I'm quite good. Thank you for asking. Busy ka sir???

ATTY: Kinda for the past few days ma'am. Ngaun di maxado. =)

PAMMY: OK. nakakamiss ka din pala sir. I hope ur doing well.

ATTY: Really??? Hehehehe =) Quite missing you also. Thank you. I appreciate it. Busy man ako, naiisip pa din kta. Sir ka jan! haha, maxado formal.. ayw ko nyan. ;)

PAMMY: Well,, we now established the fact that we both miss each other. Classic! ;)

ATTY: If you're here, I'll hug you for missin' you a lot. Just call me by my first name. TY. =)

PAMMY: Well, nothing stays missing for too long. ( *hugging you back atty* )

ATTY: I'm longing for that baby. =)

PAMMY: Yeah, you've mentioned that. Xo wat's keeeping you busy thse days besides skul???

ATTY: Girls??? ... Nahhhh, dnt have tym for that. Practically skul lng. It demands my tym a lot.

PAMMY: OK, well, t'was nice to hear from you. Hope you'll have a great day ahead. You reap what you sow atty, so might as well invest early on. You can do it! =)

ATTY: Nothing stays missin' for too long..what do you mean by that?

PAMMY: Well, it's either you miss the person or not. Tama ba?

ATTY : Ah ok. Nag lunch kna??? May paxok ka today??

PAMMY: Di pa po ako nag lunch. May paxok ako later.

ATTY: Thank you for always being there even thou we just met and became friends for a short period of time. Hope you are still there years from now.

PAMMY: what's with this? ~ "Thank you for always being there even thou we just met and became friends for a short period of time. Hope you are still there years from now."

ATTY: For our so called friendship. Don't you like that?

PAMMY: So-called. I love those words. Opo nman. Continue to be my friend as you will always find me yours. The best relationships ..the one that lasts... are frequently the ones that are rooted in friendship. =)

ATTY: Yeah, I agree. Plz don't call me sir otherwise I will call you baby =) just call me by my first name ok?

PAMMY: aye aye si*... er ALDO.. roger that! =P

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